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(Friday, March 17, 2006-)
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Everytime i think im going to make blogging a daily affair im wrong. I've stopped so many times, taken long vacations in between blog entries and then i've reached a point where i cant talk about today coz i didn't blog about yesterday.
My dramatic life has gone past the point of being over exaggerated so no one will believe what i said even if i wrote it as a fiction. In the past few months however, i know that there are many people i can rely on and will give my support to when they need help. They've been my only saving grace from the hectic mass comm life and i truly thank them.
Confusion is the top of my problem although i tell myself to quit it. You see, confusion does not leave u. It deliberates and suffocates you; then it lossens its grip. But all these while you think it's gone. It's not. It's noose still hangs around your neck.
i wish insanity came before confusion. it's so much easier to deal with insanity then to deal with confusion. coz when u're insane, you're caught up in a world that revolves around you and the issue that keeps u insane. When you're confused you're everywhere but no where in particular.
purple chipped nails
buckets and red pails
these colours aren't real
pretty pink hearts
golden brown tarts
they're nothing but art
everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all
imma confess
i might repress
holding on to pieces
i thought i'd let go
imma confess
my life's a mess
seeing all these people
i thought i'd known
everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all
you got me hiding under my bed
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you asked for:
self
I'm usually happy to help you.
But im much too emotional
so I can get pissy and upset
basically moodswings are my thing
tho i'm doing my bit
and trying to save the universe
by stopping my bad behaviour
you dont have to understand me if you don't want to
I don't ask for that
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